Sappy Silent Shy december ♥

I helped my teachers at ITE AMK. It was so much fun. (: Loving the time spend w teachers and my juniors. Finally we lepak w them. Seeing the interview, make me miss mine. I MISS SCHOOLING. I know i want it to end so badly but im missing it. I make friends w the 2013 Intake. Hahaha. Kecoh siah my teachers. But i like how it goes. I've been feeling feeling like a teacher these few days. Having my own office is fun! Hais. I want be a teacher laa! HOW?!?! Anyways, i called the kids that has been selected to Visual Effect course. Was nervous at first but at last, it was easy. Fun ah call orang. Then got this one malay girl was so excited when she heard me that she got selected. Hahaha and im happy too. Hahaha. Aku senior mah. Hehehe. I can't believe im not learning Visual Effects no more. :( It's okay. But i want to continue school. I want try early Childhood course but......my GPA sucks big time. Boohu. I'll make love to you. I just ...

My GPA sucks. My current gpa is 3 but cumulative is 2.6. I can't get to go anywhere w that kind of number. Hais, apa laa nasib aku. I want try nafa/laselle/poly/first media design school but.....MORE HAIS. I can't afford. FUCK THIS SHIT. I never gonna get anywhere. I hate this. If work? I don't know. Nobody wants me. How the fuck am i suppose to live my life? damn. Now im jobless, nothing to do at home. But Ms Shikin ask me to do some Portfolio, so im trying to do some. She ask to do on digital, instead of drawing. Well..... I did some drawings at my drawing book. Okay whatever. Im kinda lazy to do anything now. I wish i can get up every morning, jog, eat breakfast at macds, 2nd shower, go to the library, start doing art shit on my laptop, eat lunch w a special someone, have fun laughing and create memories, continue abit of my work, maybe dinner, do some late night jog/cycling around the park, shower, bed. ahhhhhhhhh relaxing or what. Wua...

False Plaintiff This is bryner band song. I pretty much love it. You guys should listen to it. (:  It's 3 in the morning and im still awake. ish ish ish. Okay laa. I hope im gonna have a great sunday. Insya Allah. Amin. Andddddddddddddddd i need braces for my teeth! It's getting worse. :( Hais. Need to collect $4000 siah -.- how? No money shay. boohu......... FN//xxx

ehhhhhhh baru ah nak update. I don't what to update but i turned 19 already last Moday. (: heh. Lambat siah nak 19 bey next year daa 20 eh. Oooooo myyy gosssssh! Hahaha. I no more school & living w my aunty from now .... Bored. But nevermind. K thats all. Im loving "no more love songs for you" (: i heard this from Raimi. Happy listening. Bye.

Okay until.. K, lets start from the beginning. Im trying so hard to move on. Actually i might think i can. So a few guys contacted me. It was okay for a few two to three days but then they started to annoy me. Like why are you telling me you like me. I just like broke up. I dont want to rush thing, plus! I'm not so interested in you, i just wanna be friends. That's all i wanted but i don't like to like break their hearts. Kkk, what would you guys think if some unknown guy top up your p8 card just want to get to know you? Some might say, sweet apa... If me, OMG YOURE LIKE PAYING ME TO ENTERTAIN YOU. That's my opinion. I dont wanna to tell that guy cause, im like breaking hearts. Another one, cannot kena abit if not keep on like begging me or something. Gosh! I need space! I know im like being a bad person but... I just want things to be cool. Im a type of girl that if im lazy to reply, i can just ignore. Simple. Im lazy. Know that. I don't entertain people anyho...

Getting crazier. Day by day, i've be very good. I have a normal life without he being with me. Everytime i think about him, everytime i cried a little and my heart sinks deep down. I want him to be always with me but i can't take it any longer but being honest to myself, i really want him in my life. Im like dragging my heart to forget about him but the more i think, the more guilty i am for letting him go. Im like Aang, i don't really know what im doing but thinks, it's the best. Night by night, tears falling down my face. I admit it, i really miss my rohaizad..... Even tough i pretend that i didn't look like i care about him, didn't pick up his calls, don't wanna meet him and stuffs.... Actually i want to.... But something just stops me from doing all that. Arggh this is so hard. OMG im one messed up girl. Haissss. If only i can hug him just for one more time, it would be magical.

Nurul Huda's Wedding. Meet up around eleven plus in the morning inside bus 17 with Ain, Dina & Syafikah. While i was waiting for the bus to arrive, Iqbal text me. He say, he saw me waiting for the bus. Hahaha paisey. Then the they arrive, i went up the bus and talk talk with them. Funny moments. Then reached at Naf's stop. Iqbal & Haziq were there. I thought Haziq is coming too, but no. He going meet his girlfriend. So we waiting for the rest. Margaret, Daniel & Eliza. Then Khairul & Elfy reach at Huda's by bike. Woooo so syoik siah! Hahaha. Then makan makan at the wedding. (: Take photo and all. Then off too punggol. Nurellyna's Open house. We were abit lost at first eh. Funny. Then at last we reached. Lalala talk talk click click eat eat salam salam go home. Chill chill burung(CCB) w Syafikah. But i and Ikah didn't. We go downtown and drink at McCafe. Lepak until 9? Had amazing laugh and sad moment with ...