Sappy Silent Shy december ♥

Getting crazier. Day by day, i've be very good. I have a normal life without he being with me. Everytime i think about him, everytime i cried a little and my heart sinks deep down. I want him to be always with me but i can't take it any longer but being honest to myself, i really want him in my life. Im like dragging my heart to forget about him but the more i think, the more guilty i am for letting him go. Im like Aang, i don't really know what im doing but thinks, it's the best. Night by night, tears falling down my face. I admit it, i really miss my rohaizad..... Even tough i pretend that i didn't look like i care about him, didn't pick up his calls, don't wanna meet him and stuffs.... Actually i want to.... But something just stops me from doing all that. Arggh this is so hard. OMG im one messed up girl. Haissss. If only i can hug him just for one more time, it would be magical.

Nurul Huda's Wedding. Meet up around eleven plus in the morning inside bus 17 with Ain, Dina & Syafikah. While i was waiting for the bus to arrive, Iqbal text me. He say, he saw me waiting for the bus. Hahaha paisey. Then the they arrive, i went up the bus and talk talk with them. Funny moments. Then reached at Naf's stop. Iqbal & Haziq were there. I thought Haziq is coming too, but no. He going meet his girlfriend. So we waiting for the rest. Margaret, Daniel & Eliza. Then Khairul & Elfy reach at Huda's by bike. Woooo so syoik siah! Hahaha. Then makan makan at the wedding. (: Take photo and all. Then off too punggol. Nurellyna's Open house. We were abit lost at first eh. Funny. Then at last we reached. Lalala talk talk click click eat eat salam salam go home. Chill chill burung(CCB) w Syafikah. But i and Ikah didn't. We go downtown and drink at McCafe. Lepak until 9? Had amazing laugh and sad moment with ...

Officially single.... Today was okay...until..................i saw him went into my classroom im like "WHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT!" -.- then i just continue w my work. Stress up eh. Lagy lagy i know his there infront of me. Hais. But, imma cool girl. Like normal, i play my loud music like i own that class. Hahaha. Some songs macam nak bahasa kan dia but, aku tak rude okay. Budak baik, tanak sakit kan hati orang lagy.. When he left, i went toilet with Shidah darling. I asked her, if he really do wants things to be okay he should come at me and ask me whether it's really over or not but..... He didn't so...yet. It totally is over between us. And when i heard from z on what "he" say, i feel that my heart kena tembak many times. It hurts.. But, what the hell~ Im a chill person. Say what you need to say, i don't give a fuck, as long kau bahagia suah. Big deal. But i feel kinda sad. Real sad. His the best to me. Even-tough i know my ...

I'm so TIRED. To you it's my fault cause i didn't meet you yesterday. I was tired, i'm weak, i know. So i went home and sleep. Didn't shower at all eh. Hais. When i woke up and text you, you say you meet that person cause that person die die wanna introduce you to her friends. I'm like what the hell. Seriously, i'm heart broken. But he don't see it that way. He blames me for choosing sleep than meeting him. Im seriously dead. I know we can meet up different days. Macam laa daa qiamat. Anyways, bila aku mati, kubur aku sorang je di dalam so, sleep comes first. I need more rest. K, aku marah actually. Bobal pon karut. And i know no one reads my blog so i can type whatever i want. Daa, i told him its over. Our story ends here. Fullstop. But he still............. Arggggggh. I don't know laa. I do really really reaaaaaaaaaly love him... But, i kept on hurting myself if i stay again. Hais. I'm the only one that understands my own feeling and o...

Maswandi's family. Emira so cute! Im like her mother right. HAHA HENNA FOOT Suhaimi's family. FNMN's family. Meooowmilooo Some of my raya's 2012 photos. Not much as always. Too busy. So far i've jalan raya only three times. Hah. 1st raya w sufie's, iya's family plus my mother and grandma. 2nd day w ciksha's family. The 7th day w mama. Which is always the worst but, hais pity my mother ah. Nothing special uh this raya. I wish it could be better soon. Amin. Okay, i should go to sleep. It's 11pm ni. And by the way, i think things are a little better w boyfriend. I was actually very very verrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrry heart broken but.....................one last chance... Okay. Nights. Happy Moanday tomm.

Happy Raya 2012 guys. It was a v fine day indeed to celebrate raya. Eventough malam raya didn't end well for me. But i don't  mind. This is life. Salam Aidilfitri.

Happy 15th monthsary to me and Mr Rohaizad! Hehe. (: I love him till bits and pieces. ♥