Sappy Silent Shy december ♥

Thank God Everything is okay between us. Because of me, he started the fight. Because of what I've done, he stopped trusting me. I don't know now. Like what he says, Without TRUST, there can't be no Love. So true. But i admit, all this time he always say the truth & the rights. It's just me je never listen & didn't kept the promise. But that promise, it's hard to fulfill it. Soyeah. Shouldn't make that promise in the first place. I'm sorry. Sorry that I've hurted you. When he say to me this one line i felt hurt & i was very afraid at that moment. I though he was gonna to leave me. So my eyes busted out crying slowly. Then he's like, Kenapa nangis mintak simpati pulak. Something like that uh he say. Then i'm like more tears. Inside of me feel very hurt. Not the hurt that he felt because of me but i'm still hurt tau. It's hard for me to think much that time. I don't like to think. He is so clever. Unlike me. Sad siah m...

FARHANAH NAZURA IS SO EEEEEEE WORLD! Cakap je. Sekarang ako da sakit kan hati orang. Eee! Stupid thing ever! Kenapa? Haiya. I don't know what to say to myself anymore. Nothing i do now is correct. Semua nya salah. Facts about me, I can't seem to trust myself. How could anybody trust me? Argggh!?!!? Baik anah, just great! Now i wanna call him, but.. I'm just too scared cause it's my fault. Dia mengamok. How can i speak at home when everybody can hear me. Ala, anah takmo emo la. Everything's gonna work out? Ok, i shall keep that in mind. Please, i'm so so so so so so so sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooorrryyyyy!

Today Natural Beauty. Sahur: Nasi ayam sama sambal tempeh, milo. Tak pakai makeup nary! Muka macam tak mandy siah ako. Baru bgon tdo gytuh. Hahaha. Now class like cold only. I'm blogging using Shidah's MacPro.  Homework: 3 matchmoving video clips @ TV1101A facebook group by this Friday. K, got break now. Takle makan. :( 10:20hrs must be back liao. K, by the way boyfriend say can we hug nor kiss? hahahah nampak sah tak bole kan. Hahahha cute la dia. Sweet kan kita? Hahahha. Class couples. (: Break took pictures je. We were thinking of doing bestfriend tag. But i think later break break time we do. (: Attention everybody! From Rohaizad and Farhanah, we say to you all, happy puasa. Don't smoke, be like us. :D - Zad. So broken english. Hahaha, meh ako tukar. From Rohaizad & Farhanah, we would like to wish you all happy fasting! Please don't smoke, chey. (: - Anah. Hahahahahaha! Funny uh tady. Shidah & boyfriend ter-shock themself/eachother at the class d...

1st August. Sahur: Nasi putih sama daging, milo. Buka: Mee rebus pedas & kuih-c, chocolate milk, air tawar. Hehehehe. When Nenek kejut me, i terus bgon. Like wah kan. Ala 1st puasa je macam ni, ok je can bgon. Lama-lama k.o. Hahahhaha. Biasa je. After eating around 6 something i guess? I go bathe, pray, otor my school pants, make-up, wear school tee & slept for like 30minutes? Then wore pants & off to school. Wasn't late (: Lalala, watch movie 'Just go with it' & 'Sekali lagi'. Fun. Lalalala. Break. Cannot eat, soyeah. Just sit outside the classroom. They sleep, i listens to music & sing along. Hahaha. Ok, Maya was like fucking shit! I don't know how to do. :( K, whatever. School's finish. Lepak awhile only with shidah & taufik then off to home. 630 i reached home, bathe all. Da breakfast! (: Lalala, pray, ngaji, pray. Done! Byebye.

Waliaowey. So tried hor. Wakeup at 12 plus i think? Text they 3. I thought i can follow them but at last, tak cause Mama ajak makan malam. Lalala, makan mandy tengok Nightmare Elm Street. Tating uh cita dia. Hahaha lalala, i go transfer money at Tmart. & My face like never bathe like that, tuh la. Always wear makeup, when remove it, i look like a ghost nor tak mandy. Hahahaha. Ok whatever. Sap my very last R. Yeah, it was awesome i guess? Hahahahha & i bought Blue Coral. (: I really want the Name Necklace now. Cepat uh arrived. (: Hah! Home, bored! So i record myself singing. Jangan comment please. Ako tahu tak sedap, ako tak pasal pon. Hahahhaha. I think now wann relaks & watch movie with my Sisters. (: Esok puasa nak kena bgon early. 

30th July 2011. Like at last we meet. It's been like 3 weeks she didn't come to school. Bad Jessica & she says that she'll quit school. Awwwwwww. :( Jessica leaving TV1101A. Wasted la Ah Star Loo. No more ppg. Never mind i understand what are you feeling right now. So yesterday i feeling-feeling like Chinese girl cause i'm the only Malay hor. Hahahahha! But i look like one right? Heeeeeeeeeeeee! Had a great time with them eventhough we missed the Fireworks because of Marcus & Queenie busying finding clothes. Padahal nary nak gy shopping lagy. -.- Sepak dorang. Hahahah but takpala. First i meet them at Tampines Interchange Small Macds. Then off to Bugis to meet up Queenie then of to Suntec. Slack at Skypark. After that both the girls when home already. Me & Marcus go sit sit awhile outside Esplanade MRT entrance. 11pm we go take Train at City Hall. Byebye & my cellphone when dead after that. Fucking Shitxx manh. Took 3 home. Got back home safely.  Now i...